Seeking Direction

"Grief is a part of love. Love of life, love of self, love of others. Grief is the natural reality of lost love" 🙌🏾

I don't think I'll ever stop grieving, but I pray it won't hurt forever 💔

I don’t like home 😞 it’s not the same.

I am lost at work, my schedule has changed. No trips to and from the dialysis center. No rushing home to do dialysis or to cook and meal prep.

There are 3 dirty glasses. Not even enough to put in the dishwasher.

I am not sad. I am not angry. I am lost. I literally feel an emptiness inside me. A hole that cant’t be filled. I look at myself in the mirror, I see me, but I don’t recognize me.

Grief is such a weird thing. Imagine being shattered and trying to put all the pieces together, but some are missing…do you give up or do you create something new?

I embrace my pain, my grief. It is evidence that I once had a great love.

I am still searching for direction because everything I know is flipped completely upside down 😭

My the moon guide me like he does the tides 🌕