Moving in Faith

These days I am moving strictly in faith, because I am lost on my own.

I’ve been with my husband more years than I have not. I don’t even remember my adult years without him. I am lost, sad, scared, and anxious about what my future holds. That’s why I am not trusting in my own judgment, but relying on God's guidance.

If you know me, you know I am ready to get rid of everything and run far far away…but Darryl definitely wouldn’t approve of such foolishness.

As much as everything makes me cry, it makes me smile. I had the perfect husband for me. As I think back to this past year, he told me he was not going to make it. I didn’t believe it because we have been fighting for so long. But this past year he did a lot of things that he would never have done…like wearing matching Christmas pajamas. This doesn’t seem like a lot for for 25 years I begged him to do it…and he absolutely hated the idea of it 😂 I was always kinda spoiled but this past year some of the things were out of the norm for him to gift me.

We all know that we will have to go. For the longest I held my breath thinking it was coming at any moment. When it happened though, I didn’t believe it. I saw and heard him take his last breath, but I still thought he was going to recover. Denial I guess.

Sending prayers to everyone. Walk by Faith✨️. We will be alright 🙌🏾 Just Keep Going