I messed up this morning and had some meetings switched around. It impacted someone who was dependent on me.

I can’t stop crying. I feel guilty and upset and sad. I am even though it eas an honest mistake, I can’t shake my sadness.

Because it all takes me back to my feelings of not properly caring for Darryl's health. I remember he fellas broke his hip trying to make soup. I could have made the soup, but I didn’t feel like getting up to make it. Instead I went and took a nap. He fell and sat on the couch with a broken hip until I woke up 😭 he was in so much pain. And I haven’t forgiven myself for not helping him when he needed it.

Today is not a good day. I want to crawl in bed and try to hide this pain…I hate to let people down