Holidays Hurt

As we approach the holiday season my anxiety is at its worst.

I have very painful memories of DT being sick and in the hospital or being unable to be with us even before he passed. I have memories of not having Thanksgiving meals. I have so many overwhelming memories.

I am also an Empty nester. All of my kids have moved out of state. My mother and siblings have also moved out of state. I miss family holidays together all around the dinner table gathered up, laughing, and catching up.

I have created new traditions and others have adopted me as family. I am thankful for the love.

I am just trying to shake the holiday blues