Grief...3 months in

I read that “Rage forms when grief has not been allowed or honored”

At first, I didn’t know if I would be able to grieve and recover, so I tried to fight it. That lead to some level of anger.

However, I wanted to honor the love, peace, and joy that my husband always provided to me and those around him. As I started my journey of grieving, I decided to use my grief to be intentional with my love and those I love.

Three months ago, my husband took his last breath and I’ve been learning to breathe on my own ever since. I am still trying to discover me. I feel like my life hit a reset. I can use this period to create a healed better version of me or I can bring the baggage, pain, and hurt into my future.

My husband was always pushing me to be the best me. I think I will use this next chapter to make him proud and spread love and laughter the way he did. I think I’ll lean into the remembrance of Happy times during this next phase of grief.

It’s our 3 month death-versary❤️‍🩹