Crippling Sadness

I hurt all over. The pain I feel is in the inside and I don’t know ow how to get it out. I’ve been fighting for my happiness. I’ve been doing really well. I’ve had less and less bad days, but when they come it’s getting harder and harder to overcome. I can’t get out of my head.

This sadness mixed with guilt, shame, rage, and anger causes me to lash out, stress out, cry and hurt all over. I pray I get this round okay. Today it feels suffocating. Today I feel crippled by my pain. Life isn’t fair. It has beat me down. And I just want to stay down for a while. Until I can breathe.

Is this how grief works? 😔