Anger = S.W.C

Man, I have been trying to suppress my anger. It manifests itself in tears and hurt feelings. 💔

I suspect that my goal of being happy makes me work even harder to ignore triggers that make me cry.

Here’s the long and short of it. If something bad happens, I break into tears. I feel like I’ve had enough pain and heart ache to get a pass from anything bad happening. That’s not realistic. I know life will throw me curveballs and I'll have to adjust. But still sometimes the slightest thing makes the tears well up.

It also triggers guilt. I think about all the things I Shoulda, Woulda, Coulda done to prevent my husband's death. I know. It’s unrealistic to think that I could have stopped the inevitable, but maybe if I understood or knew earlier…just maybe it would have bought me more time.

I am working on healing. In the meantime, I am trying to handle myself with care ❤️‍🩹