Super scared

Today was a very rough day. I found my husband on the floor unconscious.

Everything in my body froze. I have no idea how I moved throughout the day. I know that I called an ambulance...waited for them and answered their questions. I remember the EMT noting he had been to our house before…then I remember my husband being so cold that they had to cover him and blow heat directly on him. They couldn’t get a temperature or an EKG. I remember people calling and coming out. I don’t know how I navigated the conversations. I am sure I was strong for everyone around me. I hope I comforted them.

I am thankful my sister in law came over to clean up. I was able to sleep. I felt like I slept for hours. She said I barely slept.

I am running on autopilot. I have never been this afraid before in my life. I am afraid that this breakdown will break me, but I know I have to be strong for my husband. This is too much. I never want to feel this scared again.