Something has changed

I am me, but I don't feel like me. It’s hard to explain. I just feel different. All the times I poured into people when my world was falling apart…all the empathy I gave to people when I felt lost inside. I just don’t have it anymore.

For years my husband has been sick. I took care of him by myself. As I was dealing with his illness and eventual death people called on me for my help and support. I provided all of that to everyone. I gave my everything hoping that helping others would lead to reciprocity, but all anyone did was take. I wiped my own tears. It made me stronger. It made me aware that all I have in this world is me.

This phase is called For Tameka. I owe myself a lot. I am going to love and spoil myself more. I am going to be more selfish with my time and energy. I am going to make Tameka happy. I deserve it. 💖