My new friend...Anxiety

It’s funny, that after all the years of taking care of Darryl through his sickness and later his death, I never had THIS much anxiety.

When I tell you that everything out of the norm unnerves me and sends me spiraling…MY GOODNESS!!!

My therapist referred me to another therapist. I feel like Tony Saprano when Dr Melfi said she wouldn’t see him anymore!

What do you mean you can’t go further with me???🥴

I have had knots in my neck and shoulders ever since.

So now I have to re-tell the whole horrid story of my life to someone new? 🤦🏾‍♀️

I haven’t had a lot going on…I mean I have but as soon as I have down time I drive myself crazy with crazy thoughts about what might happen.

Honestly, I am usually not a political person…but even the election stuff got to me. I was having panic attacks and going down rabbit holes that I actually cared nothing about. I just couldn’t keep my mind from thinking doom and gloom.

I thought I realized how much I leaned on DT to keep me calm. He had a LOT to deal with from me 😂 I am a handful. My mind races. If I don’t watch myself, it gets away from me. New things drive me crazy anymore…and I thrived on new things.

I am fighting through, learning to breathe…really breathe and hone my goddess energy.

Wish me luck…I don’t need this type of friend.