Looking Glass

I spent day 26-29 of my 50 Days of Fun in DC with my daughter, friend, and her daughter. The days were filled with laughter, memories, food, drinks, and most importantly LOVE ❤️

On the night before we left we had drinks at a Speakeasy. The drink menu was a book with each story having a themed drink. I chose the “Looking Glass”.

Like in Lewis Carroll's book “Through the Looking Glass”…my life has become the opposite of what I expected to be normal. I feel like a child that has had to grow up too fast. I feel like I have lost my security blanket.

I still cannot believe that at 50 I have had to create a whole new life, identity, and way of living. I cannot believe that I am a widow.

This life is still confusing and alien to me. I am making the best of EVERY day because I have never been more aware of my mortality than I am now.

I am learning to live at 50 💖