One year Anniversary

One year today I completed my home hemodialysis training.
If you know me, you know that I am bossy and want things done "right" (aka my way)😂 anywho with problems getting my husband back and forth to treatment while I was working, I decided to learn to do dialysis at home while I was not working.

Baby...this was definitely more than a notion! I am thankful I had the time off to take the training, because this lesson rivaled that of Circuits and DiffyQ😬. I was supposed to get the training completed in 2 weeks. It took me almost 5! There was literally blood sweat and tears...all from me!
I remember practicing to cannulate my hubby 💉💪🏾 and then doing it...only to have no blood come out. Then having to poke him multiple times or move the needle around in his arm.
Then I remember reciting the steps in my head and forgetting to clamp off the needle. Blood everywhere💦 or alarms sounding and not knowing what to do...while my husband calmly talked me through. He would be cool as a cucumber and I was imagining him dying at my hands in a pool of blood everytime ANYTHING happened.
I don't know how we made it to the one year mark.
I've had plenty of panicky calls to the nurse who once came over in the middle of the night because I got an alarm...I forgot to give him his blood thinner and all his blood clotted in the machine. I thought for sure I'd killed him. Whole time I had tears running down my face, he sat patiently trying to keep me calm. 
I can look back and laugh now. There were a couple tongue lashes given out to the customer service people as well...we are currently on a completely new machine, which I've had to replace components multiple times. That is an adventure too.
But I got so good and so comfortable with this dialysis thing, that I packed up the machine, and his supplies and traveled cross country for the holiday.
Life is funny like that. The situations you think you will never get through or might kill you, are usually the ones you can look back on and laugh.
One year down...many more to go.
Your handy dandy dialysis tech👩🏾‍⚕️💉