I miss you

I have managed to maneuvere through this year without you.

I have managed to forge a life without you.

How and ever…I miss you. I miss the early days, the struggles days, the funny days, the traveling days, the praying days, the fighting for each other days…I miss you every day.

You are the strongest person I've ever met. I hope I can be half as strong as you were. ❤️‍🩹

During the quiet times, I often have conversations with God. I pray that you are well. I pray that the kids heal, I pray that I heal.

I wonder what if? I ask why? Was it better to have you sick for so long so that we had the hard conversations? Did you suffer too much? Were you too tired? Were you holding on for me, for us? Will we ever be okay?

Why? You deserved so much better than all the pain you went through. I hope I made you happy. I hope I didn’t push you too much. I hope you know I loved you with all my heart. I hope you are resting peacefully with your loved one. I hope I see you in Heaven and you are proud of me. I hope we meet again 😭 #widow