There are others watching you💜

Yesterday was a whirlwind of emotions; fear, sadness, anger, hope, and love.

Going into my husband's pending surgery, people reached out and I let other family members know the magnitude of what was going on.

The kids took it the hardest naturally. I sat with the kids in the parking lot calming and reassuring them of the decision we made to move forward with DTs surgery. I could tell they were afraid and worried. No one wants to lose their parent. And he is definitely an active good father. Of course, I had to crack a few jokes and talk stuff to lighten the mood. I had so many funny stories about their daddy. He’s a character😂

Because of this new infectious disease standards the kids couldn’t come in to see their daddy before surgery. My next to the last baby is in Tennessee and was really upset that she couldn’t see her daddy. So I facetimed her so she could talk to him before surgery. I am laughing thinking about the conversation. She is puffy faced and teary eyed, he was observing himself in the phone and upset that his hair was all over the place! 😂 I told her that it was confirmation that his vanity would not let him leave us with messy hair!

Anywho, the surgery went well and he was a champ through the entire process.

I spent my entire day trying to comfort and reassure everyone that he would be okay.

I made it home and ate dinner with my baby girl. She looked over at me and told me that she thinks that I do amazingly well in high stress situations and I didn’t show any signs of being worried or stressed.

I told her it is my natural state. I’m a fighter, but sometimes I get wary because I am busy taking care of others and no one is taking care of me.

However, I went to sleep with a smile on my face. My husband was okay when they gave him little to no chance…and knowing that my daughters are watching and depending on me…and I clearly did a good job.

You never know who is watching. I was born and bred a leader as the oldest child. When my mama had no one she had me and I had to be an example for my siblings. Clearly, in my natural state this is who I am. Thank you God and mama for making me tough (even when I don’t want or think I can be) 💜