Too heartbreaking to post

It happened again. Last night / this morning I was awaken to DT calling out for me. He had fallen halfway out of the bed and could not get himself back up. I also struggled trying to get him back into bed. It took me about 20 minutes to get him up and situated. He was battered and weak. I was exhausted and heavy hearted😪

Are we reaching the point where I will not be able to properly care for him? Do I try to bring a nurse back in, knowing the awful experience we had before? What if I am not enough😭

The truth is, I get jealous of couples out doing things...although we did a lot, there was so much more and so many more places we wanted to go. This isn't fair. I am not okay

Lord please give me strength and guidance 🙏🏾