These next few days are not going to be easy for me. This new life will not be easy to adjust to…but thank you God (in advance) for holding my hand and guiding me through.

My husband came home on Wednesday. He spent time talking to friends and family. He was sleeping a lot and couldn’t get comfortable. At the end of the night as I was getting ready to give him his meds and head off to bed, I asked him if there was anything he wanted…he response was that he wanted me. So I put a twin sized mattress on the floor of our dining room, right next to him.

All night he tossed and turned and complained of pain. I had to call the hospice nurse twice. She came out at 12:30 am to increase his meds. He was still irritable and uncomfortable. We laughed and talked trash to each for a while. Then he finally fell off to sleep. It wasn’t a restful sleep and he “snored” excessively throughout the night. I kept praying.

The next morning I woke up, watered my plants and sat on the deck for a while watching a beautiful sunrise. I thanked God for the sunrise.

At about 8 his uncle called and offered breakfast. I went upstairs, got cleaned up, and came back down to answer the door.

When we walked it the dining room, there was absolute silence…which was eery because DT had been snoring loudly all night. I touched him. He was warm, but I couldn't feel his pulse. I put the BP cuff on and got nothing. I touched his face and he exhaled his last breath.

I thank you God that he waited for me to leave the room to pass away. I thank God that he didn’t have to lose his dignity. I thank God that he isn’t in anymore pain. I thank God for the memories we’ve made. I thank God for keeping me with him for this long when He didn’t have to. I am thankful that God gave me this amazing man for as long as I had him. I thank God for the promise that I will see him again.

My forever love is saving me a spot in Heaven…and I can’t wait until I see him again 💜