I have been holding it together for the most part.

Last week though, I dealt with a lot of sadness and depression.

The funny part is that when I was sad and alone, no one noticed. I fought through it on my own.

However, when I show glimpses of happiness and joy everyone questions why.

I get it. I lost my husband eight months ago. I guess I should be in a constant state of depression. Believe me, I was for years. No one noticed. I am trying to prevent myself from drowning in a season of perpetual sadness.

I am like Michigan weather. I want my sunshine and happiness to emerge, but the gloom of winter sadness and depression overrides my sunshine.

The seasons never seem to change much anymore. I am just holding on