Seriously I want to know if tear ducts dry up, because Y’ALL. I cry. A lot.

I was once offered a job in Arizona and I told my husband that I couldn’t go there because eventually they would run out of water…I needn't worry about that. The amount of tears that I cry could rival Lake Superior♒

So one of my goals for 2022 is to read more. To do this I take advantage of Audible and listen to books on my ride to and from work. Bless my heart, I’ve driven down the road with tears streaming down my face. Most of the books I’ve read have been nonfiction, self help books. Still cried.

I’ve been happy at some of the blessing I’ve received. Cried. Lots of tears.

Taking my husband to and from appointments. Tears. Stupid dumb tears with added sobs and gasps for air.

Today made me ask the question, do tear ducts dry up?

I got a call from two of my former colleagues. We are more like best friends / siblings. The conversation was about how well one of them is doing and how their team respects and admires them. We talked thirty to forty minutes. Baby! The tears started as soon as I hung up the phone. Big drops. Flood water tears. I was at work. I was working and just letting them flow, because they wouldn’t stop and forty five minutes later, one of my colleagues came over to talk. I made her uncomfortable as hell, but no matter how much I wiped the tears, they wouldn't stop…my whole little cute mask was soaked. Poor woman. She immediately asked if everything was okay with my husband. I reassured her he was okay, but had a hard time articulating the reason why I was crying. In fact, I still can’t explain it. It’s a combination of missing my friends, happy they are doing well, happy the still keep in contact with me and saddest I am not there to share in the daily grind. I feel like I let them down. And I feel like I needed to be gone to take care of my husband. I dunno.🤷🏾‍♀️

Anyway, I cried on my way home listening to my audio book. Then came home took a nap and cried again because WHY am I crying? 😂

I remember when I was twelve or thirteen, I used to cry off of music. My younger brother says the first time he saw me cry I was listening to I Need Live by LL COOL J.

I’ve been crying for every emotion ever since…you would think I would be dried out by now.

Anyway, I love you guys and I cry about that too 💜