I am not putting my happiness in anyone else’s hands.

When I was struggling and didn’t know if I would have the strength to carry on, I was alone.

There was one person that checked on me every day to make sure I was eating, sleeping, and generally taking care of myself. That person died three months after DT died.

Imagine fighting through the pain of losing not one, but two people you loved.

Imagine doing it all alone.

I’ve fought hard to get to a place where I don’t cry myself to sleep every night.

I am doing better at taking care of myself and doing the things that make ME happy.

I can’t let anyone disturb the peace that I’ve found.

Sometimes events and conversations take me back to dark places. I have to fight to remain calm in the face of those dark moments.

I’ve worked so hard to escape the hurt and pain in my heart.

However, life doesn’t care if you are healed or healing. Life will test you.

That’s when you need to dig deep to make sure that you don’t revert to the person you’ve worked so hard to overcome.

It’s a test of your conviction to change and growth.

I pray that when you are tested and hurting, that you choose to take the high road and remain the healed you.

Pray that I remain that version of myself as well ✨️