It's funny that I am now learning to find my motivation outside of trauma. I have always had the attitude that I was fighting, battling a hidden adversary as my motivation

Now that I am healing it feels like I've lost motivation. I feel the need to be doing something. This is also part of my trauma. These past few weeks I've allowed myself to relax. I fought the urge to fill my calendar with “things to do"… I have taken naps. I’ve listened to my body tell me to rest and relax.

This is so big for me. And foreign. I am embracing this ME outside of trauma. I am erasing the people and memories that were the source of trauma. I am closing that part of my story.

I allow myself to rest

I allow myself to do nothing

I allow myself to be free

I am deserving of quiet times

I am at peace with the world around me

I am hopeful for better days

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